An Unsent Letter To The One That Got Away

Dear You,

Remember the time I told you about my fear? My one unexplainable fear of waking up one day not having you in my life anymore? I don't know back then why it always felt as if God will one day take you away from me. The feeling was too real it was petrifying.

But there was you. I can still recall how you lovingly held my hand, how you, by just holding my hand, made all of my fears disappear. It was that certain warmth in your eyes I see that calmed my soul. My heart knew it was that kind of reassurance from you that I badly needed at that moment.

Crazy how it's haunting me now even in my sleepless state. How could you possibly forget that, my love? How could you suddenly turn my greatest fear into reality?

Nights went by where I just find myself unable to distinguish whether I was awakened by a bad dream at 3AM or I was wide awake the whole time.

The pain, the agony, the torture brought about by losing you was beyond imaginable. It was too tormenting for my weak heart. It's as if I was in the middle of a sand storm- intense, profound, all-consuming, that I can vividly recall how much I prayed to God that He would heal my heart and how I pondered how to get an amnesia if my prayers would still be left unanswered the next day.

But as I write this, please know that I don't hate you. Not at all. Because I love you beyond my greatest fear. I still do. And I guess, I always will.

Yours,

V